drank.

Dinner is served...

and of course drinking it out of a big pink cup makes it taste better.

This is actually really freaking good and surprisingly filling. Its the strawberry Atkins protein shake. 

I'm drinking it as a meal replacement tonight because i was 

really craving something sweet.

Stay Sparkly.

4 more pounds til i hit the 50 lb goal.

anxious.

I wanna celebrate..but its not like i can eat..or drink..

maybe i'll treat myself to a 

new shade of lipstick. 

Why is it so much harder to diet on the weekends?

Its raining and the kids are napping, all i wanna do is eat 

myself into a pizza coma. 

Weekend Motivation:

Two years later...

oh hey.

i suppose two years later is time for an update. (fake laugh)

You know how you can just get comfortable in your environment and not notice

that you just gained a shit-ton of weight? No?

Well that was my life last year. 

So at the beginning of July i decided to go a different route and get professional help. 

The idea was to get a consultation for a Lap-Band.

Everything happened so fast, they had a couple extreme diets to 

start with and had the surgery scheduled for the end of the month.

I started HCG injections with the 500 calorie diet on july 1st.

On july 18th, they inserted a KE Diet feeding tube through my nose. 

It was supposed to last 10 days but i only made it through 5.

Something really gross happened when i burped on day 5, i'll spare 

you the details but long story short, it came out. 

I decided not to have them put it back in because it was such an inconvenience. 

I was at school everyday and taking clients with a tube coming out of my nose and a backpack.

SOOOO. 

The surgery is put on hold for now

because my cosigner backed out at the last minute. 

But we wont talk about that.

We'll talk about how i've lost 46 pounds since july 1st.

i know, thats fast. but i'm motivated.

and excited.

So im back on hcg since the tube came out and i'm gonna try to keep

you guys updated on the progress. 

Thanks for reading 

Better Than Chocolate.

Happy Easter!

Keep that candy and shit away from me. 

k, thanks.

Nick ordered pizza tonight for himself.. again...

but i don't find pizza to be to incredibly challenging for me.

I am a victim to sweets. 

Or salty/sweet crunchy things.. like chocolate nuts and pretzels..

omg.

Next subject.

Today I have lost 36 pounds and 23 inches. 

And that's better than chocolate.

4 pounds away from my next Orchid :)

If you didn't see it already, Nick buys me an orchid for each 10 pounds i lose.

I have 3 now.. and wondering where i'm going to put all of them :)

He's sweet.

But anyway.

I have 10 days left and 6 more pounds til my goal for the round.

Bring on Phase 3. I have like, 100 recipes bookmarked 

that i can't wait to try out.

Aaaaand 

I can't start working out when i want.

OHH, 

and i got the cutest little tiny food processor.

I thought a widdle one would be 

perfect, so i don't make more food than i need to eat.

And its PINK. hehe.

I made Vada her breakfast with it this morning :)

So yeah. 

I wish that after 36 pounds i would see more of a difference in myself.

Nick says he see's it. 

Maybe i have 'body-dismorphic-disorder' 

ha. i'm jk-ing.

But i was looking at some photo's of myself on my birthday this year (feb 9th)

and that is most definitely the largest i have ever been in my life.

So it's going to make the perfect 'before' picture. ;)

You can also follow my journey on Facebook HERE.

Thank you for the all the support <3

xoxo.

Eating CLEAN.

First thing's first.

I have lost 29 pounds so far. 

Which means i have TWELVE more to go 

until my first major goal.

The super groovy part is that i haven't been this weight since before i

had my FIRST kid.

Almost three years ago. 

Anywho. 

I want to talk about how my mom was in town staying with me this week.

My mother is a type TWO diabetic with arthritis and a heap of other 

health problems. She happened to be my biggest motivation to

start treating my self better. I really don't want to end up like

that.. and i was close.

She drinks diet coke from sun up to sun down. Never ingests a single bit of water

and usually only eats food that comes from a box or a bag.

Suicide, right?

So I showed her some studies that were done and linked diet soda 

to joint pain, depression, and obesity.

It finally convinced her to put them down. After she's been drinking them 

since the seventies.. it's taken me a while to convince her.

I made her lunch and dinner while she was here, but she ate what i ate.

She lost six pounds while being in my house.

There was a few nights where she didn't even have to take her insulin. 

I really want this to be a wake up call for  her. We need to keep her around.

Side Note:

I've been receiving a lot of negative feedback

for doing the HCG diet. If you

happen to be one of those people

please know that i AM under a doctors

care, and my DR thinks i'm doing 

fantastic. 

But since some people don't like to keep their negativity

to themselves, i don't currently talk about 

my progress on my FB or twitter anymore.

I have a separate PAGE on FB that i post updates and 

talk to others who are going through the same things

for those who would like to 

see how the diet is going.

XoXo <3

Dear, NAY sayers.

Its down time at my house. 

Kids are in bed. 

Watching The Voice. 

I'm trying to steer clear of all social networking so nobody spoils

the season finale to my favorite show because i can't watch

until tomorrow :(

What a great time to update.

As of today i am down 21 pounds. 

I have 20 more to go until i meet my first 'mini goal' and i

really think i can do it by the end of this round.

Lately i've been getting flack about using this diet

Some people think we are 'starving' because we only have 500 calories. 

I truly recommend to any of you to do your research.

HCG acts on the hypothalamus, signaling the body to release stored fat

into the bloodstream where it is then available to be used by the cells for 

nourishment. This forces the body to use mobilized fat from the the bloodstream. 

HCG causes the release of abnormal fat without affecting structural fat and muscle tissue.

Which basically means, its fucking awesome.

Nobody is malnourished. Nobody gets cancer. 

HUNDREDS and thousands of people have been successful with this

diet and it has literally changed their lives. Including myself, and i'm just a

beginner. 

Think about it.. what's worse

Obesity, High-cholesterol, high blood pressure, heart disease, 

diabetes, heart attacks...

OR 

an ALL natural hormone that isn't FDA approved?

The FDA would approve us to eat our own FECES if they 

thought it would keep us dependent on manufacturers.

SO-STOP googling reasons why you shouldn't do it.. and ask someone who HAS.

Look up some before and after photos. 

Read how it changed lives.

That is all. 

xoxo.

HCG Day 5.

And i've already lost 13 pounds.

I hope you know how much this excites me.

A few people have messaged me wanting to know more about it.

Here's the short version.

HCG is a hormone found in pregnant women that somehow causes your body to burn 

an abnormal amount of fat. It curbs your appetite so  you won't be hungry on 

this very low calorie diet...and the pounds just melt away. I've averaged 

a loss of 2.2 pounds a day.

And really. I'm not hungry.

I actually feel like most of my eating was habitual and its habits that 

i'm struggling to break.  Like late night snacks

while my shows are on. Eating simply because i'm bored 

or something tastes good. 

I knooooow it's only been 5 days, but i feel like i've used an 

enormous amount of discipline this week, and i'm proud of myself.

The instant results are motivation enough for me.

A friend of mine even made a group on facebook where 

we all support each other and help answer questions. 

My only question is.. why am i just now hearing about HCG? 

I would have started this shit years ago.