Day FIVE.

I'm so glad this day is over.

I'm so tired. Brace yourself for a short venting session.

Basically my family is in the middle of a major transition and i feel stuck. My husband spends his days networking, looking for a job, school related things, VA appointments, groups at the Vet Center, and 

volunteering with the wounded warriors. 

Then there's me...being ganged up on by my kids.

cook breakfast

make bottles

pick up toys

change diapers

clean up

make lunch

pick up toys

make bottles

clean up

You kind of see where i'm going with this? Don't get me wrong, my husband is the most involved, loving father that ever existed in this world. He has just been busy lately, and i feel like my only

friend is my 2 year old. I also know that he only does things for the betterment of this family.

So i feel like a complete bitch for complaining about it. 

I'll bet by now  you're wondering what this has to do with my diet?

I have done EVERYTHING i can to stop myself from indulging in an entire box of ooey gooey

double fudge, double chocolate chip cookies. Or better yet, a big juicy Baconator and a pile of french fries from Wendys.

Literally, like, it is making my body HURT from resistance.

I guess it is true what everyone has always told me.

I really do eat my feelings.

Thanks for letting me get that out. 

I have taken everyone's wonderful advice about having more calories.

So today, this is what i had:

Breakfast:

Egg whites with cheddar 120 calories

Yogurt 170 calories

And that might be my every morning routine. Give or take a little oatmeal.

Lunch:

Pecan salad and a little broccoli and cheese dip with a pita.

Yum. 330 calories.

About dinner. It was a bust. I was so disappointed. I'm trying to force myself to try "new" veggies that i was convinced that i didn't like as a kid.. and apparently i still don't like squash. Blah.

It was a hot mess, i didn't even take a photo of it. 

Lets just say my broccoli/squash/beef teryaki concoction was 

400 calories. 

So they day is finally over with 1020 calories.

(Only two more days until my first weigh in!)